Traumatized.

Since the morning that the Seniors hosted the hot chocolate gathering for the Freshmen, my mind has been elsewhere. That morning has ultimately been one of the worst that I have ever experienced. I woke up in a great mood, ready to start the day. However, my day would soon get crazy. I am usually running late every morning, but that day was not the case. We left early because it was windy and it looked like it would rain. I was sitting in the back seat shuffling through music and laughing with my mother and sisters. As my mom was driving through the neighborhoods to drop my sister off at O'brien, we witnessed something horrible.
There was a child who was more than likely in my sister's grade riding his bike. He was on his way to school. In uniform, a backpack on his back. Then it all happened in seconds. The boy riding the bike was hit by a truck that was not paying attention. In a matter of seconds he was on the street. Screaming. I was frozen. My mom jumped out of the car and a couple came running out of their house to see if he was okay. I did not know what to do. My sisters were crying and I tried to comfort them. The kid continued screaming, but he could not stand up. Soon enough, ambulances came and took him away.
My mom drove away and my sister had stopped crying by the time we arrived at her school. I moved to the front seat, speechless. Mom kept trying to ask me if I was okay, but I couldn't find words to answer. All I could think of was his screams and seeing him on the ground. The bike wheel spinning. I didn't feel like participating in the gathering at school, let alone actually be at school.
A week later and I can still see it perfectly and I can still hear his screams as if I was right there all over again.
My friends and teachers are asking me how I am dealing. I don't know what to say or think. I just don't want to talk about what I saw. I don't know how to process it. It's constantly on my mind. But I know that if I keep myself busy, it will not be there so much. Reckless drivers piss me off. How can they be so oblivious? You were driving in a neighborhood on a school day. Children are riding bikes and walking to school. Be cautious.
I really hope that kid is ok. I feel so horrible that it happened. And that I was there to witness, but could not process it fast enough to help him.